044/365 - 13. February 2013

Waiting for...

... a change. We are at home for weeks now. You babies start to get annoyed and need definitely a change of scenery... Please!!! Spring... start!!!

Love you,

Mama

043/365 - 12. February 2013

Happy

Oh my... it becomes a habit that I forget taking pics of Max or Lina... today it was Missy. Just thought about it late in the evening when we were in bed together nursing... happily... 

For me... there are never enough bf pics... love them!

Love,

Mama

042/365 - 11. February 2013

Delaying tactics

Sometimes it takes quite a while to come to the first floor for bed time... there are, of course, so many interesting things on the way to investigate...

You two are the funniest

041/365 - 10. February 2013

Carnival

My darlings already have their second time on Fasching together. Last year my boy was more a baby than a toddler and Miss L. was just a few months. Nevertheless we put them into costumes and went to town... astonished boy on daddy´s shoulders and girl in the wrap.

Unfortunately we couldn´t go there this year because I didn´t want to overexert myself too much as I was only recently feeling a bit better. But there is a children´s costume party taking place near our home every year...

My Max changed into the cutest firefighter ever and Missy became a most adorable ladybug... 

You two make my heart burst with love and happiness!

Before we left, omi was asked to take some pics of the four of us which turned out pretty difficult. Lina was not in the mood to look at the camera as she was too tired and annoyed and Max could not look at the camera as he tirelessly screamed "Too bright the sun!". 
We walked in the shade and did quickly...

Taking photos at the party was not easy... there were so many children running around wildly and playing games. It was a challenge to get my children´s faces ...

Dancing Lina

Protective Brother

When we arrived, Lina left my arms at once and went straight into the fuss... unlike Max who wanted to stay with mama and papa. I told him to join the others and play with them but he refused...

... until I begged him to go forward, to protect and take care of his babysister. Guess who didn´t even hesitate one second! This is the way you want a big brother to be, isn´t it!?

I adore you,

Mama

040/365 - 09. February 2013

I do it my way

 Just look at me...

... I´m simply gorgeous!

I love you,

Mama

039/365 - 08. February 2013

Recovery in sight

Lina so loves to feed our Lilli. Although we always tell her to stop because this tiny dog is not allowed to eat everything she wants her to give... she does not obey!

Have to take a second look but I think I forgot to take a pic of my boy... had an appointment at the doctor´s in the evening and so I was quite distracted...

Nevertheless,

I love you so much

037/365 - 06. February 2013

So sad

Yesterday evening I reached my lowest point so far. Have been to the neurosurgeon and he told me I had bad prolapses in my spine and that every therapy to become painfree would include, or better require, stop nursing.

I was devastated... the thought to stop our breastfeeding relationship that fast was so horrible. I would not be able to wean her within one or two days and I was not able to stand this incredible pain any longer.

So what to do? 

My lovely hubby was a great support. He tried to comfort me and was by my side as I shed lots of tears of despair. This was incredible!

And I asked my lovely friends for some advices. I never ever thought to get so many supporting, heartwarming and helpful words. They told me not to despair, to research and not to believe every word the doctor says. They were so sweet and I´m happy to have so many friends all around the world who are taking part of someone´s life. Somebody they don´t even have met.

So I spent this morning on the phone, calling an information bureau which is specialized on drugs during pregnancy and for nursing mamas.

.... and they told me there was no reason to stop with breast milk. One of the most wonderful news ever! I´m sure that there are enough people who do not understand my concerns about this special topic but for me and my babygirl it´s essential.

Biggest relief... today... I am thankful... and proud not to have quit! 
Breastfeeding my daughter (and my boy before) is the most rewarding and difficult thing I have ever done. It isn´t really a struggle for us but it is demanding a constant giving of myself... and getting the purest love back from her!

I would give my life for my babies,

I adore you

My boy... you are simply perfect!

Love,

Mama